Basically, i'm sad la.

Actually not very, but just now on the bus, talked to becca.
Cannot control.
I just feel sad.
About all the stuffs that happened recently.

How different it was from last time.
When there was a couple of sentences, till now left with less than 5 words.
This morning i scrolled back to december's msgs.
I really want everything to be back like, that time.
But it just changed almost instantly.
Like, normally changes are like, over a period of time,
but for it, its instant change.

而你断断续续唱着歌, 假装没事了.

Maybe it could be like what becca say,
but its impossible.
I dont want to ________ you.
But i guess you're _________ by me. D:

我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔.
















Ballroom dancing is fun.
Wenjun is stupid.
I kena picked twice :O

I DNT LIKE YOU.↲
COS YOU ARE NT WHAT I THGT YOU WILL BE.↲
DNT GO ARD CHEATING PPL'S FEELING.↲↲
BYE.

The Best Of 2009 ♥

Rebecca Yang.
My baobei nu-er. Thanks for all the memories in 2009. ♥ Your runaway, your silly jokes. And the countless times we went out and i went to your house. Thanks for being there for me all the times. I never had a friend like you before, thanks loveee! ♥ 2009 had been such a eventful year for us, so many tears, so many laughters. Sorry for the times i've made you angry, i don't mean it. Hope that 2010 will be a better year for you :D Move on with life, you cannot yi bei zi stepping at the same stones. Be happier next year, study hardd! Hope that we won't drift apart? ♥♥♥♥♥.

Goh Xueyi.
My deardear mummy. LOL. You are full of craps and jokes seriously. Hahaha, the one who i first went sentosa this year with! :D Really had fun with you when we went out, especially taking photos, funny sia. The first girl i went mac just to paint ♥ Thanks for everything and everything. Stay smart luh. And pretty. ♥ Sorry for all those misunderstandings and my irritating times. 2010 will be a better year, and all the best. Be happier :D ♥♥♥♥♥.

Toh Kai Xin.
Grandnu-er uh. ♥ This year had been such a year for us. Many many misunderstandings happen all the times. Sorry. And thanks for being such a great friend! ♥ Your mother cooks nice food. :D Continue to work hard and stay strong. :D Don't think that no one cares for you, cos there are always those people around you who cares and loves you dearly. :D Be contented. And, don't let your tears fall down so easily anymore, for things that are not worth it. Prove to other people, you can do it as well. All th best for 2010. ♥♥♥♥♥.

Elfin Poh JieYing.
Hey, my kindergarden friend. ♥ This year had been such a hard year for you, facing someone's fakeness and betrayal. And we're slowly drifting apart. D: Hope we could be back the same next year. I really had fun with you though, when we are together in stuffs. Rmb becca's thing? Hahahs. Sometimes, life isn't as hard as you thought it would be. Let go of certain things thats probably wasn't meant for you, maybe you would be so much happier. No point dropping tears for those people who aren't worth your tears. Continue to study hard! ♥♥♥♥♥.

Jasmine Ng.
DEAR JASMINE, we only managed to went out once or twice this year. SAD. You know how much i missed that you're still with me and always there for me? And the times we spent together, and all those phone calls. But now we're all so busy with our lives, making new friends D: Hope next year after Os, (hopefully i can pass) we're able to go out more often. ♥ I miss you ♥ All the best jiayous. I love you :D ♥♥♥♥♥.

Jacquelyn See.
COUSIN! ♥ Thanks for the times together, and the times we went for trainings and tournaments! Even though we're always jokingly, but funn right? hahahas, Hope next year we still could go out for lunch tgt ♥ Study hard and LEARN YOUR PRONOUCIATION! :D I promise, after i step down, i'll still come back to pei you derh :D Cousin See, jiayous. Don't need care about other people who don't deserve your care. :D LOL! All the best and do well for your Ns! ♥♥♥♥♥.

Goh Junwang.
This year alot of things happen uh. lols. But still, thanks for all the times, all the smiles and the tears. I learnt alot. Seriously. Hahaha, you're the first one to bake a cake for me for my birthday! hahahas, all the best to you. Study hard. :D ♥♥♥♥♥.

Sim YiJia.
AH SIM! ♥ Even though i know its VERY impossible for you to see this, but don't worry i'll try my best to get you to read! HAHAHAHA. My dearest gannnstead, thanks for everything everything and everything. :D Stop trying to talk crap with me everytime. You're good. ♥ Hahahaha! Next year we'll study hard tgt kay! HAHAHAHA! Box you :D All the bestt :D Until you find someone, CANNOT PAO QI WO! LOL. And most of all, happy birthday! :D ♥♥♥♥♥.

Toh Song Wei.
BROTAAAAAAAAAAAA! ♥ Xie xie ni for everything and all the craps. Thanks for all the times on msn, thanks for cheering me up always. You've been a GREAT BROTHER! :D Hahhaha, all the craps and laughters, i won't forget :D And cheeer ups luh, don't always so sad nad keep hais hais hais, like that you'll grow old very fast! LOL. And i still waiting for my 16th birthday :D Better don't be something stupid! LOL! Just kidding. All the best and be happy always! ♥♥♥♥♥.

Desmond Sim.
BESTIE! ♥ hahhahas, I remember beginning of the year we quite close also. Now we like, talk quite little. Ahhh, lols. Study hard lahhhh, don't think so much liao. What is meant to happen, will happen. :D thanks for cheering me up and telling me jokes to make me laugh. :D You're a great bestie. :D Hope next year would be better than this, jiayous. :D all the best! ♥♥♥♥♥.

Ang Binxiu.
Stupid grandson. ♥ LOL, i'm not gna thank you for bullying me and calling me sotong always! HAHAHAHAHA. But really thanks for being there for me when i need someone and your stupid jokes that make me laugh. Xie xie ni luh. Stop being so pervertic luh. Small kids dont prey on them. HAHAHA, stop calling me sotong! I'm NOT. LOL. Kay buhhh, i'm not gng to ask you to grow any taller, COS YOU ARE TALLL ENOUGH. Kay, study hard next year, all the best. Don't bully your ahma anymore. ♥♥♥♥♥.

Harry Zhang.
MIND READER! ♥ Thanks for being so lame and stop calling yourself noob! You're a good friend :D And you're SMART. Stop denying. Thanks for all the encouragement and everything, thanks for teaching me maths :D All the best for 2010 and become more smarter! Then my prediction will be correct! HAHAHAHHA. ♥♥♥♥♥.

3/1'20009.
The funniest class ever. All those craps and stupid stuffs. Such as running away from remedials tgt everytime, those handball sessions, preparing for class skits. Throwing paper aeroplanes and putting deodorant on deberati, all talking back to mrs ang, being quiet when being scolded by mrs anba, when nobody is listening in mdm fauziah's lessons, paying attention taking down notes in mrs yeo's lessons. All those, being the worst sec 3 express class in entire cohord, but that doesnt bring us down. Even though we're the only class with the most number of black file records, the most number of people being retained, but its the really bonded class ever, 3/1'2009, all the best. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥.

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Nadiah, Amyraa, Syarizan, Verlyn
Handball mates! Really had fun with you'll during handball practice sessions! and the competition! We did our class proud! 3/1 girls- FIRST! :D Hope next year's games day we could all take part in handball again! ♥♥♥.

Weisheng, Sharen, Shannon, Khialynn, Bharatth, Reece.
Clock in sessions! Thanks for making it such an enjoyable sessions, even though we had to stay till quite late in the lib, then unable to go home afterwards cos its always raining! I won't forget how everyone passed ard their ans sheet, copying all the works, and laughing at mary who was always in the lib cleaning, and talking about her seducing william. lols. ♥♥♥.

Sec 4 seniors.
Shahirah- For being such a great captain and joker, and being so cute. :D
Wanyan- Vice captain, will miss you. :D
Huiying, Weiling- XIAO QIANG! DASHEN! Really had fun with you two playing doubles with me and jacquelyn! Ying and Ling. ♥♥♥. Hahahas, And you two still owe me 10 packets of M&MS! HAHAHAHA, kidding! All the best, last long and stay sweet with jordan and zhiyong! HAHAHAHAHAHAH. :D
JoeyK- HONEY! hahah, been close to you for a period of time, i remember we'll always take bus home tgt after trainings. Thanks for being there for me! :D
Renfang- LIN RENFANG! You're a good senior, seriously. :D AND very cute too, even though we all laugh at you sometimes, cos you seriously very cute! HAHAHHAA. :D

Sec 3 Batch.
Girls! Our attendance had been very bad! Stop slacking luh. hhahaha, We've been tgt for 3 years, times flies! LOL. Even though next year 4 of us gna step down, but will miss you all! ♥♥♥♥.

Sec 2 Juniors.
Andrea, Trixie, Weilin, Ritchell, Eliza, Rachel, Peishan, Yukei, Winnie.
You'll are a bunch of jokers, but good juniors. All the best in your studies and badminton as well! :D ♥♥♥♥.

Chunleng.
Surprised? LOL. Thanks for being there for me all the times when i need someone. And stop scolding me stupid! hahahaha! Don't so xiao qi laaaa! LOL. Must continue to train hard and study hard luh! You're smart. :D HAHAHAHA. I looking forawrd to see you in top 3. HAHAHAHHA. ♥♥.

Coach Pang.
COACH! Thanks for being a great coach this year! Even though our girls often make you headpain tao tiang. LOl. Hope you can woo until the girl you like! ^^ LOL! ♥♥.

White Brother.
WHITE BROTHER! Army tough right? Hahaha, lets find more time and play badminton again! I gna win you next time! LOL. Thanks for everything. :D ♥♥.

2010, is ahead, is coming.
All the best for everyone out there.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥.

Cos now, even you think the same way too, maybe.

HOHOHO, havent updated for quite sometimes.
Don't worry people, i'm okay :D
Wednesday had friendly against westwood.
Hahaha.

Thursday i managed to meet up with shaocong and shixu ONLY.
Ahh, nvms.
Only two, but play badminton with them very fun! :D
We booked for one hour only but we play for two hours :D
Hehhehhehhh, shhh ;P

Yesterday was christmas, was at orchard with family.
:D
Nothing much, then went pizzahut. :D
Homed, then sleep lerh, cos very tired.

LOOKING FORWARD TO TODAY!
YIPEEE YIPEEE YAYA, meeting elfin and shaocong later *HEEEHEEE*
Then had to SMU training, gna meet becca then we go there. :D

Maybe i am, as what you thought.
Maybe thats the only word you could use to describe me.
Bye.

All of a sudden, i really feel like crying.

这世界太热闹 怎麽倾听
一颗心呼唤另一颗的声音
这世界再热闹 还好我们刚好在这里
刚好很安静

Maybe i think too much,
or maybe thts what i really need to do.


If, A is much more happier with B,
why don't you let A go?
Since B is able to make A hyper, and happy always.

Maybe, holding on seems much more stronger,
but letting go, is the tough on.
I think, let go is a better choice.
Sometimes, somethings just don't belong to you, just not fated for you,
let go.
No point holding on, so upset about getting hurt all these.
Rather than, just let things be.
If they are happier like that, thats what you should do.

This year, i learnt how to let go of certain things.
Friendships, relationship.
Maybe it doesn't even belong to me in the first place,
maybe everything was just not meant to be.
If holding on makes me so sad, why not just let go?
It may be painful, tough, but you'll feel happier after it.

If maybe it meant to be this way,
I'll let it be.
I'm letting you go, i hope i can.
And i'm talking about you, not you.
Don't know, these few days think alot.
Maybe its time.







我很伤心, 真得很伤心.
可是, 我却只能让你走.
希望你会比较快乐.